I’m overwhelmed with GRATITUDE. For all of you who have sent messages, texts, comments and calls. You see it isn’t really about the weight.
It’s the emotional healing thats been happening. And I want to share with you all the juicy & ugly details. Because that’s how TRANSFORMATION works. When you see someone’s before and after pictures they have usually passed through all the hard stuff. They speak to you from reflection not actually from the place of being in it (deep in it). So I’m dedicated to sharing from the “in it”. I’ve been making better choices in foods & using my oils daily to support my body (mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically) I’m so committed to breaking down my walls. The ones I allowed to hold me prisoner for a very long time. The same walls I created to protect myself. From being visible & transparent. For fear that if people really knew what was going on behind the scenes they would be like 🙄 omg is she for real. But honestly I don’t care anymore. I don’t care to hide the reality of this shadow side because it makes me who I am. All of me. EXPOSED. Most of you know me as an extrovert who’s always willing to try something new and push my own limits. That’s the OVERACHIEVER in me. Wanting to be the best. At EVERYTHING. That stems from my childhood growing up hearing that what I did was never good enough. That messaging leaves a permanent mark on your heart and in your mind. It also skews reality and that’s when I started to build my defence mechanisms to cope. It also contributed to emotional eating which lead to holding weight for protection. This also spilled over into my relationships. And it still shows up today. As a massive overachiever my relationships can be strained. Because no one else can do anything as good as I can (umm hello) and my expectations of others are extremely unrealistic. I’ve felt let down and lonely. Because of the pressure I’ve placed on others. It’s time for TRANSFORMATION. So this my loves is another reason I’m committed to myself. To shedding these layers of emotional & physical baggage. To create healthy, loving & supportive relationships. To release more and more emotional blocks. I’m ready to shine my purest light. I want you to know I’m sharing so much and so honestly because some of you need to hear this. You may be suffering from some of the same challenges. If we don’t commit to changing/ evolving ourselves we will continue to struggle with the same shit. OVER AND OVER AGAIN. And I don’t know about you but I’m done with that!