The Voice I Lost (and How I Grew Back Toward the Sun)

The Voice I Lost (and How I Grew Back Toward the Sun)

A story about silence, shame, and the slow reclaiming of what was never really gone.

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There was a time when my voice paid the bills.

When music was the dream.
When I was on stages across the country—singing, performing, doing voice work, chasing the thing I thought I was born to do.
I poured everything I had into it: my fire, my identity, my creative soul.

And then… it all fell apart.

The tours dried up. The bookings vanished.
The money disappeared.
I went bankrupt.
I lived in borrowed basements and shaky apartments.

And somewhere in all of that unraveling… I lost my voice.
Not just metaphorically.
Literally. Creatively. Spiritually.

I stopped singing.
I stopped speaking up.
I stopped trusting myself to be heard.

And what I didn’t realize at the time was how deep that wound would go—how that one moment of being publicly silenced by failure would ripple into every part of my private life for years to come.

Because when I lost my voice publicly…
I started losing it privately too.

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From Basement Silence to High-Functioning Disconnection

Even as I rebuilt a life—one that looked “successful” from the outside—I still felt like a woman without a voice.

I created a six-figure real estate business.
Opened a yoga studio.
Led retreats.
Became a Lululemon ambassador.
Coached other women into their power.

I was visible.
Productive.
“Thriving.”

But inside?
I was still stuck in that basement.
Still carrying the belief that I wasn’t meant to be heard.
Still wondering: Can I really trust myself again?

And because I hadn’t healed that core wound, I kept shrinking my voice in subtle ways.
I edited myself.
Performed instead of expressed.
Pushed instead of trusted.

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And Then—The Light

It wasn’t until I discovered Human Design, astrology, and the Venus Star Point that things began to shift.

I started looking at my own chart—really looking.
And what I found wasn’t shame or failure.
It was power.

A reminder that I was designed to lead.
To speak.
To create.
To magnetize—not by pushing—but by being exactly who I am.

The voice I thought I’d lost wasn’t gone.
It had just been buried.
Under shame.
Under survival mode.
Under years of trying to be what I thought I had to be to succeed.

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🌻 The Sunflowers & the Lid

This morning, I went out to check on the seedlings I’ve been growing.
They’re in these little plastic greenhouse trays—baby sunflowers, pushing their way upward.
And what I saw honestly stopped me in my tracks:

They’re lifting the lid.
Literally.

These tiny, determined sunflowers have outgrown the container they started in.
They’re pressing against the plastic like they know it’s time to rise.

And I realized: that’s exactly what my voice has been doing.
Pushing. Stretching. Seeking the light.

Even when it was buried.
Even when I thought it was gone.
Even when I couldn’t see the sun…

There was still something in me growing toward it.

Because that’s what sunflowers do.

They follow the light.
Even when it’s dim.
Even when it’s behind clouds.
Even when they’re still underground, they know.

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Maybe You’re There Too

Maybe you’ve been silent for a while.
Maybe your voice was shamed. Or stolen. Or exhausted.
Maybe you’ve outgrown the container you once fit inside—and part of you is scared to stretch.

But here’s what I’ve learned:

You’re not too much. You’ve just outgrown the lid.
And your voice? It’s not broken.
It’s just been waiting for the light to return.

You don’t need to push harder.
You don’t need to prove yourself.
You just need to turn your face toward the warmth again.
Let yourself be seen. Heard. Felt. First by you—and then by the world.

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If You’re Ready to Reclaim Your Voice…

I see you.

You don’t have to burn it all down.
You don’t have to start from scratch.
You just have to start tuning back in.

This week, I’m sharing more on this inside my podcast:
🎧 This Week’s Truth – The One Where I Lost My Voice
🎙 The Deeper Dive – Your Voice Isn’t Too Much—You’ve Just Outgrown the Lid

And if you’re feeling called to explore your voice through your own energetic map—your astrology, Human Design, or Venus Star Point—check out my Magnetic Archetypes Guide. It’s a gentle way back to yourself.

Your voice isn’t lost.
Your light hasn’t gone out.
And the lid?
It was never meant to hold you forever.

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✨ Join the Free Masterclass: Discover Your Magnetic Blueprint

If your voice has felt quiet—or like it’s stuck beneath the weight of who you thought you had to be—this masterclass is your permission slip to come home to yourself.

Discover Your Magnetic Blueprint is a free 2-hour live experience designed for visionary women like you—female entrepreneurs, creatives, and multi-passionate souls—who are ready to reclaim their voice, align with their truth, and lead with their energetic essence.

Inside this masterclass, you’ll explore:

• Your Magnetic Archetype – the unique energy signature that helps you stand out (without selling out)

• Your Kinden Code™ – the soul of your brand, built from your astrology, Human Design, and Venus Star Point

• Why your emotions are the real secret to becoming more visible, magnetic, and impactful—without burning out

• And how to step into your next season of leadership with clarity, confidence, and creative fire

Whether you’re just beginning to find your voice again, or you’re ready to amplify it on a whole new level—this is your invitation.

🗓 Happening June 9th, 2025 — Save your seat now: Magnetic Blueprint Masterclass

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🕛 12:00 p.m. Eastern

🌙 7:30 p.m. Eastern

Spots are limited.

Reserve your seat and begin your recalibration.

💫 It’s free, it’s soulful, and it’s going to change the way you see your voice—and your brand—forever.

Because your voice?
It was never too much.
It was just waiting for you to turn back toward the sun.